tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7947849052485990492024-03-13T06:18:06.054-07:00The Book of HeatherHeatherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17057563294952491340noreply@blogger.comBlogger60125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-794784905248599049.post-41972407538321528902011-12-15T13:24:00.000-08:002011-12-15T13:29:28.904-08:00Vegan Pumpkin MuffinsMmmm. These are the best pumpkin muffins I have ever had! Seriously mouth watering. I served these over Thankgiving to my self proclaimed sugar addict meat eating brother and he couldn't get enough, took the left-overs home and asked for the recipe. Without further ado:<br /><br />From Forks over Knifes Vegan Thanksgiving Recipes<br /><br />Chocolate Chip Pumpkin Muffins*<br /><br />Serves 6-12<br /><br />1 medium banana, mashed<br />1 (15-oz.) can sweet pumpkin puree<br />1/4 cup 100% pure maple syrup<br />1 tsp. vanilla extract<br />2 cups whole oat flour<br />1/2 tsp. baking soda<br />1/2 tsp. baking powder<br />1/2 tsp. salt<br />1 tsp. ground cinnamon<br />1/2 tsp. ground nutmeg<br />1/4 tsp. ground ginger<br />1 cup grain-sweetened dairy-free chocolate chips<br /><br />1. Preheat oven to 375°F. In a large bowl, combine mashed banana, pumpkin puree, maple syrup, and vanilla extract.<br /><br /> 2. In a small bowl, combine oat flour, baking soda, baking powder, salt, cinnamon, nutmeg, and ginger. Transfer mixture to large bowl and mix together gently until well combined. Avoid over-mixing to prevent toughness in the final product. Fold in chocolate chips.<br /><br />3. Spoon batter into silicon muffin cups and bake for 20 minutes or until the muffins are lightly browned. Remove muffins from the oven and let cool for 5 minutes. Store muffins in an airtight container.<br /><br /> *Recipe derived from Julieanna Hever’s Blueberry Oat Breakfast Muffins in Forks Over Knives: The Plant-Based Way to Health, edited by Gene Stone.<textarea style="height: 14px;" class="MessagingComposerBody DOMControl_placeholder" title="Write a reply..." name="message_body" rows="1" placeholder="Write a reply...">Write a reply...</textarea>Heatherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17057563294952491340noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-794784905248599049.post-30807881262675135382011-12-14T07:15:00.001-08:002011-12-14T07:27:26.678-08:00ChilliI just made the best chilli I have ever had. Oh, and my crepe recipe is to die for too! For the crepes I used 2 cups flour, 2 egg equivalent replacement (I use Ener-G), 1 c hemp milk, 1 tsp of vanilla, 1 tbsp of honey, and enough water to make it really thin but not to the point that its dripping just a thin stream of water, normally 1/2 c to 1 c of water.<br /><br />For the chilli first I learned how to make bread like a baker and its an amazing feeling pulling one of these out of the oven. This site makes sense and makes amazing bread - http://www.reluctantgourmet.com/bread_making.htm Seriously its like bread making for inexperienced people who know nothing like me.<br /><br />After making the bread bowls using the above link I used two bottles of Bionaturae Strained Tomato's (no bpa yay), 1 yellow onion, half bag of ham bean soup mix soaked over night, 1 tomato, half a yam, 1 green pepper, 1 red pepper, 2 chilli peppers, 1/2 jalapeno pepper, and then put it on simmer for 2 hrs. It was amazing. I used no artificial. The only bottle was the tomatoes and the rest was just straight out of the produce isle. No organic ingredients from the produce isle exept for the green pepper, just good all grown in America veggies, and a couple Mexican peppers. :)<br /><br />My tummy is happy and Elly loved making the bread with me :)Heatherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17057563294952491340noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-794784905248599049.post-7787347128042727052011-12-12T06:39:00.000-08:002011-12-12T06:44:04.385-08:00FinalsFinals the final frontier. At least for me this is my last semester at a brick and stick college. I should have never started back to school for business and I know that now. I will be glad to be done and on to my studies in holistic health and healing. Its a celebration for me as well as a drag, a celebration of new beginnings and honing in more on my life path/calling. I think to often we get caught up in the drive of life that we forget we have a purpose if we seek it and greater things we could be doing in our limited time on this planet.<br /> So its the best of times and the worst of times. A time of ending and a time of beginning. Now if only I could order take out. Seriously its finals and being a vegan in this town means if I want food I have to cook it myself, and from scratch. mmmm. vegan pizza, or burger, or soup and salad. I might just have to drive an hour and go to Panera :)Heatherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17057563294952491340noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-794784905248599049.post-13497561873544776782011-12-04T11:45:00.000-08:002011-12-04T12:08:32.039-08:00I love being a Vegan!Yes seriously I am loving being Vegan! I grew up in a family that only knew how to cook meat centered meals and got the lecture that if you didn't drink milk you would end up frail and weak like Great Grandma Soph (who was nearing 90 and death). Naturally I did what any good kid would do and ate what was prepared. Problem was it didn't set with me. I had driven past the slaughter houses smelled the stench and heard the death cry of the animals. It was the thing of nightmares the look in their eyes. Why you might ask did it take me another 10 years to become Vegan? Well simply because I didn't know any better. The media and web is so biased to the standard American diet and I had been repeatedly told that I was going to die if I didn't get enough animal protien. I finally got some down time to read the China Study about a month ago and watch Forks Over Knifes. Do yourself a favor a go watch them now. I am in love with the answers I found about why we are such a obese nation and why our cancer/hear disease/mother mortality during birth/diabetes rates are higher then most other industrialised nation. The answer? You guessed it! You are What You Eat! Now if you are a girl go read The Skinny Bitch - wait go get some vegan brownies from the store and then read the Skinny Bitch, your stomach will thank you and so will every body system after about of month of better eating. Better eating full of wonderful alive foods that are thriving and full of colour and not dead rotting carcase from another species of life form. <br /><br />Health Benefits I have experience:<br /><br />Depression almost disappearing completely (no other life circumstance changes)<br /><br />Lower Back Pain Gone<br /><br />Hormone imbalance balancing out (no more full of hormone meat for me or bad menstruation)<br /><br />Clearer Mind<br /><br />Better ability to deal with douches and other stressful situations without getting as stressed out<br /><br />Angina attacks not happening when I do get stressed out<br /><br />Ability to trash the Eliptical at 1.2 miles in 15 mins without getting tired and still having a ton of energy in the end<br /><br />More Energy<br /><br />Energy boosts after meals - which means I eat more (I had a habit of getting to skinny because I didn't like to eat because I didn't like how tired I felt after eating and who needs to be tired with a two year old)<br /><br />Happier daughter (which leads to happier Mama)<br /><br />IBS gone<br /><br />Secondary Dis-menoreah gone<br /><br />Did I mention low back pain gone!!!!!!<br /><br />Better tasting food (I love vegan recipes)<br /><br />Better life over-all<br /><br />If you would have told my depressed skinny butt that I would end up having all of my health problems dissapear in a month I would have laughed at you. I have been to doctors of the traditional and non - traditional and gone to nutrition counselling. I have been to physically therapists, psychologists, cardiologists, and pretty much every other ologist out there - md's do's, dc's Nothing worked. But This Works! I feel so alive and wonderful! I love that I am what I eat and I eat wonderful living foods that are yummy and I feel wonderful and alive!Heatherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17057563294952491340noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-794784905248599049.post-69749879063287023762011-12-03T23:15:00.000-08:002011-12-03T23:16:55.826-08:00Seriously might I just say don't read any post before this one. Really don't. They are for my personal reference only. K. Maybe if I could figure out how to take them off this would be a mute point, as it is just trust my bloggy illiterate self with this one.Heatherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17057563294952491340noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-794784905248599049.post-7771670158022528232011-12-03T23:08:00.000-08:002011-12-03T23:15:04.762-08:00I think I may actually start this up again. Now that I found out that the real reason behind all my problems, was that I was eating myself to death. No biggie. Now that I am a vegan its all better. Lets see since my last post I have had three people living with us at different times who all turned out to be losers, but I did my Christian duty and took in the less fortunate so brownies in heaven for me, miscarried twice (yes I was stupid/in love with babies enough to try anyways), bought a house, found out that Elly is a mutant with super speed, and fixed all of our health problems. I have switched future career plans three times due to all the above and realised that I am really just happy being a Mom. As long as its a vegan Mom. I am so blessed that I found the diet that I did. So this is the last post update of life, just thought I should bridge things here. On to bigger and better things. Better health, bigger plans, and a undying possibly unhealthy obsession with the Failure Club on Yahoo.Heatherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17057563294952491340noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-794784905248599049.post-47241253896894208662011-02-28T10:21:00.000-08:002011-02-28T10:26:42.853-08:00Welcome to my lunch break. Nice that I get one today. Ellowyn slept 10hrs striaght last night and then went down for a nap at noon, she is still fast alseep. Its so nice that I get a break. <br />Nothing much new lately. Just getting everything done I need to for school: fasfa in, transcripts ordered classes looked at. The main thing occupying my spare time now is trying to find a caretaker for Ellowyn. I don't need a full time daycare and that makes it hard to find space for her somewhere in this small little tiny town. I've been trying to hold on until the summer but I am getting migrains every other day because of the back strain of taking care of a bigger child (she has just gotten too big) and thats not healthy for either of us. Poor thing is so frusterated and insecure. I hope I can find someone who wants extra work who would be willing to just come over for a couple hours a day and help out with her so I can rest. Its funny how even in this economy its hard finding someone who wants to work for me because its part time, well finding the right kind of person at least. sighs. One of these days it will all work out, even if thats the day she is ready for pre-school. Other then that life has been really good for us here.Heatherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17057563294952491340noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-794784905248599049.post-67588212695337859362011-02-24T18:54:00.000-08:002011-02-24T19:18:35.975-08:00Sighs. Its been a busy month, very busy. At the same time its been full in many new ways. We where able to settle into a rental after moving twice in one week. It is a big beautiful house that has given us enough space to create a proper home. Getting a proper home and a solid schedule has been huge for Ellowyn. She started sleeping through the night earlier this week and has since hit the biggest growth spurt we have seen, and eats more then ever as well. <br /><br />We just found out last week that I cannot carry anymore children safely. Its hard especially being in a area with so many large families (religious community with large Amish and Mexican families). I cannot go out without seeing multiple pregnant woman. Ellowyn would do well with a sibling, but I can't give it too her. I can barely care for her and some days I can't care for her properly due to my back injury. It progressed severely over the years and especially due to my pregnancy with her. We found out that there are no reliable treatment options and that carrying another child would mean more bedrest and possibly cutting of nerves to my legs.... Aaron is set on hiring a surrogate if we find the right one, and if I don't get too bad in the mean time we could have another child when Ellowyn is in Kindergarten and largely able to take care of herself. I have enrolled in school and will finish my associates and possibly my bachlors in the mean time while we wait and see. I will probably take a break for the first year of the next one's (if there is a next one) life and then go back for my Masters. I have nothing else to do right now. I can't be a proper house wife, as I can't keep up with the house so that pretty much means I have to go to school and then work as I can't just do nothing. The tricky thing is figuring out a field that I can do from a wheelchair as there is a good chance I could end up in one in the next 20years. I hope that treatement options improve before that happens, but I know better then to count on a unknown. So far I am thinking design. I can no longer go into mortuary sciences as I had wanted to as that isn't something I can work from a wheelchair, and can't work well at all (too much bending, lifting, twisting, ect) in my present condition. <br /><br />I don't like it when life changes on me like that, but there never where any guarentee's. I had totally trusted the doctors saying that becasuse I was young my disks wouldn't degenerate for now, and if they did not much. I never thought I would go for a visit to a Chiropractor and be faced with the stark image on a x-ray of my spine, a image radically different from the last, and a image that told me all I needed to know. The chiropractor thought he could help me with the techniques they use, but I have been unable to find any "real" success stories and since they aren't licensed to use the machine that they use, and since it is a new very new and unproven treatment I can have no confidence in it and cannot risk the possible damage it could do. The thought of being strapped into a table to flex my back, and knowing that flexing and strain currently hurt my back, common sense tells me that it doesn't make any sense. So, I am left without any real treatments. There is surgery but no one that I know who has had it (and I know allot of people who have) had success, in fact the only reviews you find are negative. So, no babies and possible paralysis lowerlevel style. I know that degenerative disks don't normally cause paralysis but its the hernia and the way it is pinching nerves due to blunt trama on a disk that is degenerate that worries me. I am already feeling some numbness and showing signs of nerve inhibition so if anything happens to cause more herniation or if the disk degenerates funky....the whole thing is just messed up. At least I already know wheelchairdom pretty well. Its not so bad except for not being able to go on walks through the woods or feel the dirt in your toes....maybe if it happens then by then I will be able to convince Aaron to carry me.<br /><br />I have decided to take back up designing and making dresses for a hobby to keep me busy in the summer while little one is busy playing outside. I feel like it would be good to get that energy out, who knows maybe it could turn into something. I haven't had the opportunity to really delve into it much before because of lack of funds for material, but I have always been creating with fabric on what scale I could. I found wholesale fabric and it will be fun to see what I can come up with. I am thinking about doing modest prom dresses. It would be fun :)Heatherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17057563294952491340noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-794784905248599049.post-40236015341130511752011-01-08T21:02:00.000-08:002011-01-08T21:15:43.803-08:00Crazy days and Sundays. Aaron got the job offer on Thursday morning, Friday morning we accepted it after hearing back from the hospital that they have a more qualified applicant. By Friday afternoon we had worked out the money logistics to be able to move Thursday - yes this Thursday. Because its a small town the internet is pretty pricey and with Aaron's comp being on its death bed and not able to give him WoW, we are making the logical choice of not getting the internet. We will stay internet free until Aaron can get a droid on his rents plan, which sounds like it may be a couple of months. Either way I am happy. The library is less then a block away, so my escape every so often will be to leave Ellowyn with Aaron and go check my email and give you all a status update now and again. Sadly I don't think that will be very often as Aaron will be salaried and very busy until he gets the hang of things. As it is we couldn't work out the logistics to get both cars down there, so we are down one car and one cell phone. My life will be absolute bliss really. Plenty of clean air - good well water (we found the cutest house with a brand new great tasting well), lots of stuff to do within walking distance on the days with nice weather, and plenty of time to get settled and breath. Its really all coming at a wonderful time. Ellowyn is taking leaps and bounds developmentally and needs allot of time to learn things and learn how to be, to pick up her toys and clean her room. She is also really testing my limits as she whines at everything to see if she can get whatever she wants, so its a perfect time to just concentrate on her and getting her life structured, settled, and disciplined so she doesn't turn out like a spoiled lil girl. I read a article on Chinese parenting and am going to borrow allot of there concepts. I am just so glad that I will be in the place to do so. We have this wonderful little house, our own perfect size yard, and all in a very quiet community. Whats even better is my Mother in law has becoming happy with me since this development and has become fun to shop with, so we went out yesterday and will go again on Monday to get everything for the house. So awesome to be able to make a home and get all the cool little things like wrought iron looking shelves for the bathroom, matching towels, little girl bedding, and all the other little things that make a home. My next stop will be hitting up the antique actions and Amish stores for furniture!!!! It will be so grand like my own little cottage in the woods (tree's everywhere there which is a plus). <br />I will try to post a bit more but if you don't hear from me in awhile at least you know the glorious adventures I will be up too.Heatherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17057563294952491340noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-794784905248599049.post-59976811718481329712011-01-04T13:59:00.000-08:002011-01-04T14:05:27.721-08:00Life has been all abuzz lately. I had a really bad dream last night that through me off today, Ellowyn has been under the weather and yet still growing and active (just crashes really really really hard), and Aaron had a very successful interview yesterday with a hospital in middle of no-where New England, and one tomorrow in Sturgis with the boss' boss. Its really crazy too be done with his Thesis but having to make all these decisions as to which to pursue. Aaron is one of four people chosen to interview for two positions and his interview went really well so we expect another, and this looks like the final interview in Sturgis and they seem really interested as well. Crazy crazy crazy. I wish I knew anything about what its like in New England except for cold, and wish even more he had gotten a interview someplace warmer. Ah well, such is life. Hopefully little one gives me some sleep tonight, and even more hopefully I don' t have another crazy bad dream. At least it looks like limbo is ending soon, even though it will probably end in New England (they are offering 70K starting and the other is 50K starting, even though New England is more expensive the extra pay definitely makes up for it).Heatherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17057563294952491340noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-794784905248599049.post-88135201742476067212011-01-02T18:51:00.000-08:002011-01-02T18:59:10.206-08:00Its crazy the rush of cleaning that happens after the holidays. One thing I know for sure, if we have a tree or holiday celebrations, then it will be Aaron's doing because I sure as heck won't waste part of my life. I don't get warm fuzzy's I get the heebie jeebies (anxiety) at the thought of all the work that goes into it for no real good reason, when I see the Christmas tree. On another note going with out the cell phone has been pretty blissful. I love not having a electronic tether. The only downside is not having a watch handy. The upside is that when we do have the extra cash for a watch they will be really cheap because hardly anyone wears them anymore, not that I would wear one (never did get used to having something so bulky on my wrist), but my bag will (love the old fashion ones on chains).<br /><br />I called the Bishop over the congregation over the city Aaron has been interviewing in and learned allot of cool stuff and got help finding housing. So nice to have support wherever we go. I look forward to Wednesday afternoon after the interview and finding out how it went. I so hope he gets and decides to accept the job. They have extremely cheap u pick Amish farms, and a flee market in Amish town - either of which are freakin awesome! I mean just the thought of all the yummy cheap goodness and awesome cheap second hand stuff that will be really sturdy and cool rustic looking - I think I am in love. I just may have to visit these u picks and this flee market whether or not he gets the job.Heatherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17057563294952491340noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-794784905248599049.post-56491202974490347492011-01-01T19:43:00.000-08:002011-01-01T19:52:04.709-08:00Just before bed Joy left us a present which set the mood for today. Aaron went to kick her off of our bed so she would go outside, and she peed on her way off, yes that is right my pillows and blanket gone. My other pillow is in the wash, so we had to improvise which didn't improve my sleep, that combined with Ellowyn constantly waking up because she was cold and I got no sleep. So today was mainly a sleepy bored daise. I was out of my mind with boredom, and couldn't do the only thing I had to do - clean - because I was too sleepy to clean while taking care of Ellowyn (its allot harder then it sounds because she wants to help, and be chased allot while I clean). We did have the Missionaries come over, thank heaven (literally). It was such a nice end to the evening to have someone to talk too, hang out with, discuss life and its blessings and how to get through the hard times best. It was sooo nice. Right after they left Ellowyn had it so it was a easy hour of playing with her and getting her ready for bed and then she was out like a light. Sighs, so nice to be at the end of the day. I just wish Aaron was ready for bed too, so much better when he is there because he keeps it nice and warm, and snuggly. Sadly he is still on WoW cuz he isn't tired yet. <br /><br />As for me I am just anxious nervous about going with Aaron on Wednesday to check out housing. We both really feel like he is going to get a job offer and so I need to figure out where we are going to live if/when it does come. I have never been there but I have been to a small town near it so it should be fun. I just don't know how we are going to juggle a 3hr drive with Ellowyn strapped in too her car seat without anyone going insane, twice in one day. Especially with the end of her car seat ride ending with me trying to find someplace for us to chill while Aaron goes for his interview, my first though it is the library but I am afraid of it smelling bad and all musty like some libraries do...hmmm. I don't know I just know it will be quiet the adventure.Heatherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17057563294952491340noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-794784905248599049.post-28543962637951847192010-12-31T21:17:00.000-08:002010-12-31T22:07:11.896-08:00I thought the video I posted was just beautifully done. Truly a work of art, although I wish it had a happy ending.<br /><br />I spent the first part of the night playing with Ellowyn and then chasing the dog while holding her. It did my heart good to hear her laugh and laugh and laugh until she couldn't breath and then shriek from the joy of it all. I the beat Aaron's family at every game we played :). First Aaron and I won by allot in two games of Eukre (first playing a brother and Mother and then brother and Father), and then we had the two highest scores in Yatzee too. Felt really good to have the year go out on a winning streak. I had let her Grandparents play with her while we played cards and both parties loved that. I put her too bed during Yatzee and then after she was asleep (and I had played my hand) I pulled Aaron downstairs and we where able to spend the last 15min of the year together and ring in the New Year with just the two of us. It was definitely the best holiday of the year (not counting my b-day as that isn't celebrated by everyone).<br /><br />I feel really good ending and starting the year on such a good note. I hope it can be a shadow of the year too come, that Aaron and I can keep on winning through the year and continue to be able to enjoy blissful joyful time together. He has been a different man since he finished his thesis and turned it in, we have been able to tease laugh like we had before we married. What a wonderful note to start a new year on. I feel like it is the first real year for us since there are so many new beginnings to be and for the first time we are not tethered to one area for school.Heatherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17057563294952491340noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-794784905248599049.post-88139151817400686022010-12-31T14:47:00.000-08:002010-12-31T14:47:13.300-08:00Thought of You - by Ryan Woodward<iframe src="http://www.youtube.com/embed/OBk3ynRbtsw?fs=1" frameborder="0" height="295" width="480"></iframe>Heatherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17057563294952491340noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-794784905248599049.post-73459205901637994952010-12-30T18:48:00.000-08:002010-12-30T19:02:04.679-08:00Sighs. So nice to be able to write while I am still somewhat awake, lol. Ellowyn is upstairs playing with her Grandparents after getting a bath from her Grandma, and Aaron is done with his thesis so the comp upstairs is free. I am so stinkin glad that his thesis is done, as long as there aren't any mistakes. His professor has access to it either way and said he would go over it and give the approval. I don't know what I am going to do when it shows as approved honestly. I have thought about it allot. At first I thought it wouldn't be such a big deal because we have allot of debt still, but then today we sat down and figured out what to pay first and how much to pay second if we get some cash in. So, now no debt to worry about either because its all on its way to being paid. The money we got for Christmas took a big chunk out of it, so no worries there. Now we have no real stress then (because I don't stress about stuff we can't control, so not paying anything more off doesn't stress me because I can't control it), and a thesis that's about to be approved. I think I might go crazy. I know I will find Aaron, don't know if I will be able to speak, probably won't be able to speak, yeah he will think I am crazy. Maybe I will have to plan on checking it on my netbook so I can take it too him and point since I probably won't be able to speak, yeah that is probably the best plan. I wonder how he is going to react, it shall be fun.<br /><br />I read my horoscope for 2011 today. Isn't it funny that it sounds like horror-scope? That is what it has been in the past, but Taurus for 2011 is looking good. I certainly hope the blown out of proportion claims for money and career work out, haha wouldn't that be nice. I don't put much weight on them, as I haven't been able to fully understand them despite my research, so for now I just find them to be curiosities. Normally I find that a truth will mix in with other truths and they will all blend into a bigger truth, and most big truths I find re-occur in different ways amongst most world religions or cultures. This is mainly how I focus my belief's. I understand psychic gifts and how they play, I do believe in a after life, I have found that humans are capable of more then they realize and some are better at figuring this out then others, but horoscopes...they don't fit yet. One of these years I will figure it out.<br /><br />Quick cute baby story. I was unloading the dishwasher while Ellowyn was playing with all of her new toys in the front room (or so I thought). She starts to jabber and I realize that she is repeating the same jabber, so I move closer and find that she has been repeating uh oh. Her mouth is scrunched into the little o she makes when she says it, eyes wide, and a Christmas ornament in her hand. I look behind her and realize that she has torn the garland off of the bottom half of the tree. It was so cute I called Aaron over. Imagine this little 2' 4' cute girl standing near the Christmas tree repeating Uh Oh until I come and fix what she has torn down. We laughed so hard and then Aaron went and spoke to her about what she did while fixing it, and only then did she stop saying Uh Oh. :)Heatherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17057563294952491340noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-794784905248599049.post-6397968821431447282010-12-29T13:46:00.000-08:002010-12-29T13:53:28.532-08:00It took forever for Ellowyn to decide to take her nap today! I was hoping to nap with her but I just found this person on facebook that scarred a large portion of my life and am anxiously reading status updates. I did find that karma is a bitch and definitely gave this guy what he deserved, but its honestly almost hard to read, not sure why.<br /><br />On the bright side Aaron is almost done with his thesis. He spoke with his professor who told him that after he finished making the changes he was working on he would have a pass grade! Yay! I am way excited for it. Definitely looking forward to it being done today and having time with him for once in our marriage. This will be the first time he won't have to be extremely stressed about work and school. Sadly no work means no money but he has three interviews next week so maybe that won't last long. Either way its a win win him being done with school because just having to work is way easier then work and school, so he will be allot happier. I was at first having a mid twenties crises but I am settling into settling down and am starting to look forward to new adventures of house hunting, decorating, keeping, babies, ect. Even if that means that my dreams of traveling allot again won't happen right now I now they will happen. It should be fun playing house for real...right? lolHeatherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17057563294952491340noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-794784905248599049.post-15271630636518000952010-12-28T13:17:00.000-08:002010-12-28T13:28:24.749-08:00Yesterday was busy but a big improvement. I started out the day taking some Kohls cash and getting my daughter two adorable outfits!! I was supposed to spend it on myself but I get more joy out of actually being able to pick out her clothes then I would have out of getting something small for myself ($40 doesn't go along way at Kohls in clothes that are actually stylish). After that I had to bring her back, play, put down for her nap, and then head out to the bank/Krogers. By the time I got back from that it was time to go out to dinner for my Mother in laws birthday. I thought I was going to have a stress attack until I started eating. It was bad enough having to drop Ellowyn at a sitters and run after not getting much time with her that day, but to get there late and having had no time to myself either - ugh. The food totally made up for it. It was arguably the best chicken mash patato salad thing I have had and the dessert only helped. Good thing too because I am basically out of food at home and what little I had left went to Ellowyn.<br /><br />On a good note the trouble with my phone is finally settled. We had left it on trying to find someone to take over the contract, but the bill was coming due again and we had no takers. They where about to shut us off for non-payment again, so I called them and explained that I have no money and none coming in. It ended up being that my contract is suspended for three months, or until I can afford it, or until someone does actually take over the contract. I feel so free not having a phone. The bill was killing me and I found that I just don't like feeling obligated to always pick it up, or check to see if I missed a call. Once my internet and txt'ing where off the thing it became useless, and I didn't really need those anyways. I just hope we find someone to take over the plan soon. I would much rather be done with it totally then to have to face the 13months left on the contract in another three months. People think I am crazy for not having a phone (my inlaws mainly, but I think they are a little off anyways), and I think they are crazy for wanting to have a phone. Either way I am glad that it finally worked out for me to not have to pay a arm and a leg for something that isn't necessary.<br /><br />On another bright note Aaron has a interview with the boss' boss at this place he went to last week. This time I get to go with him and look at housing so we have something if they offer him the job. I am excited. I love looking at housing, even if we don't end up getting the job it will have been like a little vacation getting to spend the day touring a nice little town I haven't been too before.Heatherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17057563294952491340noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-794784905248599049.post-10815028046690636132010-12-26T20:54:00.000-08:002010-12-26T21:10:00.804-08:00I so wish that there was a way to turn down the brain quickly that doesn't involve chemically induced downers. I am against replacing the oxygen in my blood with alcohol, so that one's out, don't like killing brain cells either, and herbal tea's just take to darn long to make and kick in. I want a off button. I wonder if its something that the mind can be trained too do. I will have to look into it. I am sure some weirdo meditation expert has found a way that may or may not work, but maybe some good meditation expert actually found a way. <br /><br />I just spend most of my day working on Aaron's thesis. Hours helping him, or cheering him on while trying to help. When I wasn't working on it Ellowyn was running my ragged (already had gotten tired of her Grandparents at that point). She went to bed two hours ago and I just finished two hours of work on finding all the sources for the last write up we have to do. Aaron has been playing WoW for the past three hours. Geez louise! Now I have to go straight to bed because I will already be exhausted trying to get up at 8am after waking up with her throughout the night. She slept great while we where at my brothers, but went to sleeping like crap here. I think I may just have problems with anger a bit. I have gone from wanting to throw my brother in law through a window, to being on the verge of wanting to throw my husband throw a window. If Aaron stays on WoW late again (like last night) and again sleeps in late (like this morning) and again doesn't finish his thesis tomorrow because he had to keep taking breaks (like all freakin day), then I am going to throw him through a window - or at least it will be really really hard not too. Its not his fault entirely. My Mother in law babied him his entire life so he never learned how to push himself, even now he thinks he is pushing himself but its not near what I am doing. I wonder if he ever will have to learn to push himself or if it came to that point if he would give up. Parents have the best way of helping ruin the best people and yet they do it with the best intentions. Funny how life works that way.<br /><br />I do feel better after writing about it all and posting it on a public site. It would be funny if in the future one of Aaron's family gets into blogging and finds this. I would tell it all to their face but they would get so offended within the first couple of sentences that they wouldn't listen anymore, start screaming, and the whole point would be lost in their anger and they would then only feel more right to be angry. So, I don't waste my breath. I wish there was a mirror in which we could look and see ourselves, what we truly do and the ways we are asses. I would love that mirror because I want to not be a ass and would love to be able to better see how to live to get what I want, and I would love having other people look into it. :) I just keep hoping that the Christan rumor that we will get a re-run in the next life so we can see what we did in this one is true. There would be a few certain people I wouldn't mind seeing right after they watched theirs.Heatherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17057563294952491340noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-794784905248599049.post-77341096053951254292010-12-26T12:26:00.000-08:002010-12-26T13:29:22.561-08:00Thank goodness Christmas is over!!! YAY!!! PARTY PARTY PARTY!!! I am totally celebrating all of the obnoixous holidays being over. Thanksgiving and Christmas are not coming again for nearly a year! Woot! The best part? I didn't throw anyone through a window yesterday! The day did not get better though as once I did venture upstairs it only ended in a bunch of food that made me feel sick (way too much meat and sugar, no potatoes, bread, and most of the veggies off the one veggie tray where gone), and losing three games of euchre in a row, after winning two though. Top that off with terrible cramping and pains from my midsection, gotta love being a girl, and it definetly wasn't a Merry Christmas. <br /><br />I am just grateful to be done with those holidays. New Years is much more of a real holiday I think. Why you ask? Because you actually spend it with people you like and get to do what ever the hell you want. Now that is a reason to celebrate and a good way to do it. Personally I don't like the drunk butts but I do like to sit on the couch while everyone else is gone doing whatever they feel and watch comedies. That way if the year sucked it still goes out with a laugh. I eat pizza or whatever sounds good. Normally I start out with a good movie and end with a good laugh. Last year I just went to bed because I had a new baby, but the year before that started out with Maid in Manhattan and ended with a Who's Line Is it Anyways marathon. Let the good times roll.Heatherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17057563294952491340noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-794784905248599049.post-2966362522605658952010-12-25T11:41:00.000-08:002010-12-25T12:01:39.226-08:00Omgoodness. I think I am going to puke back up all this Christmas cheer and fake caring crap. Seriously. If they don't give a shit during the year what makes you think they care just because they show up to eat the food on Christmas? I am especially bitter today yes. Why? Well for Christmas I got in my stocking a lacey little pair of panties from my Mother in law, with no warning to not open infront of everyone. The creepiest thing about it is that it was ordered, not just something she picked up from the store. I mean ew doesn't even cover it. Aaron's only comment was 'She must want more grandchildren". Then Aaron's Aunt Debbie came over bringing German Chocolate Cake Pie - which they know I am deathly allergic to coconut, and yes they plan on eating it, not cleaning up the dishes, and excluding me from Christmas. They don't believe that if I smell it I will go into anaphaletic shock because I don't have a doctors note to show them. So I am left with the delema, do I leave Ellowyn here while I go shopping, do I go shopping by myself, or do I freeze my ass of in the basement in the hopes that they will clean up all the coconut after they are done eating the pie? Seriously I just want to leave with Ellowyn. Aaron won't guarentee that he will make sure she is taken care of and her Grandma often forgets to change her diaper when she is busy, and they don't understand when she is asking for food. sighs. I hate the holidays and fake people. Fake people are my biggest pet peeve. I can't believe they even pretend to care and pretend like its ok just to tell me when they are going to have the pie so I can go downstairs until they are done, and like pretend that having the dishes laying around won't kill me. Last time they had it I had to go to the door to go upstairs and hold my breath while wearing something over my face while I rinsed them off myself, but that was two dishes in a sink, not the 15 that will be in the sink or the garbage by the time they are done. Really is it too much to ask to at least have a warm place to stay while they exclude me from the holidays? Apparently so. I just got back from visiting my brother and having a lovely three days filled with not having to ever watch my child, all the food I could eat with someone to play with her while I eat, and pleanty of movies to watch. Yet I came back here because it was the right thing to do. If only I had known fully what coming back entailed. I would have said "fuck you I'm staying where its warm and there is food have a nice life". At least now I know that I never have to come back to any family event and Aaron won't have anything he can argue against it. I hope they enjoy probably their last holiday with us. I just ask, can I throw someone through a window yet? If Danny hadn't convinced them I was lying because I don't have proof they would have had a greater chance of respecting me, so I only think its fair he goes first right?Heatherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17057563294952491340noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-794784905248599049.post-46545770257428205372010-12-20T01:44:00.000-08:002010-12-20T01:51:42.713-08:00Ellowyn is getting cuter and cuter and into more and more trouble everyday. Today she decided to show off her newest skill of using her new height, crafty reaching, and tip toes to get things off of tables. She had been practicing this for a few nights now and today decided to share brother in laws leftovers with the dogs, I am so proud. We went to a Christmas party which was ok, but we got a $50 gift certificate to Trader Joes!!! I feel like it should be bad to be so like whatever for the party full of drunk relatives of Aaron and there kids, even though Ellowyn was in her best show-woman form, and to only get excited or happy over money for food. Ah well, it is what it is and money for food is freakin exciting! Especially Trader Joes food, that will buy me a month of Trader Joes essentials. Which when Aaron gets work that will come in great handy as there aren't many Trader Joes in this area. I will be taking out cart fulls when we find one to visit. It will be worth the drive. I am totally in love with Trader Joes btw.Heatherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17057563294952491340noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-794784905248599049.post-3849148403089643822010-12-19T06:24:00.000-08:002010-12-19T06:29:46.134-08:00I have decided that Ellowyn being on a schedule maybe isn't so great. Definitely has its pro's, that being predictable bed and wake times, but some nights she is still up all night and then instead of sleeping in like she would have previously she is awake at 8:30 am. Sighs. <br /><br />On a brighter note my dreams are continually confirming that change is coming. It is a like a welcome breath of fresh air. I love positive change and new adventures. I breath it in deep every night and at times during the days and look forward to the actual change taking place, the new adventure beginning. The last time I enjoyed their company so fully I was moving to Arizona. I wonder what new adventures awaits and exactly where.Heatherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17057563294952491340noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-794784905248599049.post-90527885087349813502010-12-18T09:24:00.000-08:002010-12-18T09:33:55.111-08:00Well she is doing better falling asleep at night. She is good at first, but its hard for her to get back to sleep after she wakes up at times, and nap time is near impossible. Literally I have had to put her in the car and just drive until she falls asleep. I am just glad that she gets way more sleep and her dark circles are gone. I figure once she's been falling asleep on her own enough it will come naturally at nap time. She has gotten so much more outspoken about what she wants. She is a determined little thing and is set in her own little world and control of it. Beautiful little manipulator. It will serve her well over her life to be so forward, determined, and sooo good at using that little pout and big blue eyes to her advantage. A fair world doesn't exist so I am happy she is good at getting what she wants. Not that I let in, its Daddy and Grandma that do. Last night her bath in the fancy tub, time at Grandma's vanity, this morning snacks on our bed, then playing with Daddy on our bed, then him walking her and holding her like she was a little baby, then off to play with Grandma. Such a beautifully simple world. <br /><br />Still no sign of my cell phone. I am starting to wonder if we will ever find it, either way we can't afford the bill and no one from the sites has offered to take over the plan, so its probably going to get shut off for non-payment soon anyways. I don't feel its a horrible thing, we will set up a payment arrangement to get our monthly payments down to what we can afford and pay it off over time. <br /><br />My dreams are still pointing towards us getting and taking this job in middle of no-where land. I certainly hope so because it looks like a dream, such a perfect little town. I am not a fan of the metro Detroit area where I reside, it would be much nicer to get back to a place where I can see the stars again.Heatherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17057563294952491340noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-794784905248599049.post-50916378559557606302010-12-16T18:27:00.000-08:002010-12-16T18:31:35.448-08:00Please excuse my absense. ELlowyn is learning to fall asleep on her own so normally I am asleep before she is now liol. For a quick update though. We are a week and a half wihtout a phone and I find that I don't miss it. Ellowyn lost it on me and I haven't actually needed it for anything. The few calls I get come to Aaron's phone or the inlaws home phone and I find that I haven't actually needed my phone for anything. Its kind of nice to because it makes going anywhere feel more like a adventure :) Its always a trek into the unknown because I am so new to the area and don't have a phone. I have to plan shopping better, and drive more carefully, so all in all I find that I am a better person without it. Drive more carefully to not miss my turns, and plan shopping better to make sure that I have directions to all my stores and don't forget to get anything. I actually like it allot. Wouldn't like it if I didn't have a home phone, but I can always get one at our next place.<br />Aaron had a really positive interview, so who knows maybe our next place will be coming soon. I certainly hope it does.Heatherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17057563294952491340noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-794784905248599049.post-26722719938724896432010-12-14T18:35:00.000-08:002010-12-14T19:09:21.980-08:00I feel like Ellowyn beat me up today. She didn't really we just had allot to get done on a little sleep. She definitely has reminded me that she is a little stinker. Today when Aaron got home he played with her for awhile, and so she kissed him twice once on the cheek once on the lips! Then she leaned into me with pursed lips like she was going to kiss me, I smiled and leaned in a bit only to have her get really close and then pull away laughing. Aaron got another kiss on the lips on the fly, and then two when saying goodnight along with a kiss on the cheek. All I got was teased more! Funny too because I took her to the resale shop and got her more toys today as they where having a nice special.<br /><br />Good news is that Aaron got a call for a phone interview today! Yes! He got a rejection letter yesterday from the company that had promised to progress him onto the next step in the process, that being a test. I am happy that he has something else to look at. I just hope he does well when the guy calls him back tomorrow, off the cuff phone interviews never where his strong suite. Either way the job is still in MI while being pretty far south and still a few hours away, so I can't complain too much....<br /><br />I wonder who will win Biggest Loser tonight. I don't follow it religiously but I do see it on occasion because they watch it. My bet is on Patrick.Heatherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17057563294952491340noreply@blogger.com0