I thought the video I posted was just beautifully done. Truly a work of art, although I wish it had a happy ending.

I spent the first part of the night playing with Ellowyn and then chasing the dog while holding her. It did my heart good to hear her laugh and laugh and laugh until she couldn't breath and then shriek from the joy of it all. I the beat Aaron's family at every game we played :). First Aaron and I won by allot in two games of Eukre (first playing a brother and Mother and then brother and Father), and then we had the two highest scores in Yatzee too. Felt really good to have the year go out on a winning streak. I had let her Grandparents play with her while we played cards and both parties loved that. I put her too bed during Yatzee and then after she was asleep (and I had played my hand) I pulled Aaron downstairs and we where able to spend the last 15min of the year together and ring in the New Year with just the two of us. It was definitely the best holiday of the year (not counting my b-day as that isn't celebrated by everyone).

I feel really good ending and starting the year on such a good note. I hope it can be a shadow of the year too come, that Aaron and I can keep on winning through the year and continue to be able to enjoy blissful joyful time together. He has been a different man since he finished his thesis and turned it in, we have been able to tease laugh like we had before we married. What a wonderful note to start a new year on. I feel like it is the first real year for us since there are so many new beginnings to be and for the first time we are not tethered to one area for school.

Thought of You - by Ryan Woodward

Sighs. So nice to be able to write while I am still somewhat awake, lol. Ellowyn is upstairs playing with her Grandparents after getting a bath from her Grandma, and Aaron is done with his thesis so the comp upstairs is free. I am so stinkin glad that his thesis is done, as long as there aren't any mistakes. His professor has access to it either way and said he would go over it and give the approval. I don't know what I am going to do when it shows as approved honestly. I have thought about it allot. At first I thought it wouldn't be such a big deal because we have allot of debt still, but then today we sat down and figured out what to pay first and how much to pay second if we get some cash in. So, now no debt to worry about either because its all on its way to being paid. The money we got for Christmas took a big chunk out of it, so no worries there. Now we have no real stress then (because I don't stress about stuff we can't control, so not paying anything more off doesn't stress me because I can't control it), and a thesis that's about to be approved. I think I might go crazy. I know I will find Aaron, don't know if I will be able to speak, probably won't be able to speak, yeah he will think I am crazy. Maybe I will have to plan on checking it on my netbook so I can take it too him and point since I probably won't be able to speak, yeah that is probably the best plan. I wonder how he is going to react, it shall be fun.

I read my horoscope for 2011 today. Isn't it funny that it sounds like horror-scope? That is what it has been in the past, but Taurus for 2011 is looking good. I certainly hope the blown out of proportion claims for money and career work out, haha wouldn't that be nice. I don't put much weight on them, as I haven't been able to fully understand them despite my research, so for now I just find them to be curiosities. Normally I find that a truth will mix in with other truths and they will all blend into a bigger truth, and most big truths I find re-occur in different ways amongst most world religions or cultures. This is mainly how I focus my belief's. I understand psychic gifts and how they play, I do believe in a after life, I have found that humans are capable of more then they realize and some are better at figuring this out then others, but horoscopes...they don't fit yet. One of these years I will figure it out.

Quick cute baby story. I was unloading the dishwasher while Ellowyn was playing with all of her new toys in the front room (or so I thought). She starts to jabber and I realize that she is repeating the same jabber, so I move closer and find that she has been repeating uh oh. Her mouth is scrunched into the little o she makes when she says it, eyes wide, and a Christmas ornament in her hand. I look behind her and realize that she has torn the garland off of the bottom half of the tree. It was so cute I called Aaron over. Imagine this little 2' 4' cute girl standing near the Christmas tree repeating Uh Oh until I come and fix what she has torn down. We laughed so hard and then Aaron went and spoke to her about what she did while fixing it, and only then did she stop saying Uh Oh. :)

It took forever for Ellowyn to decide to take her nap today! I was hoping to nap with her but I just found this person on facebook that scarred a large portion of my life and am anxiously reading status updates. I did find that karma is a bitch and definitely gave this guy what he deserved, but its honestly almost hard to read, not sure why.

On the bright side Aaron is almost done with his thesis. He spoke with his professor who told him that after he finished making the changes he was working on he would have a pass grade! Yay! I am way excited for it. Definitely looking forward to it being done today and having time with him for once in our marriage. This will be the first time he won't have to be extremely stressed about work and school. Sadly no work means no money but he has three interviews next week so maybe that won't last long. Either way its a win win him being done with school because just having to work is way easier then work and school, so he will be allot happier. I was at first having a mid twenties crises but I am settling into settling down and am starting to look forward to new adventures of house hunting, decorating, keeping, babies, ect. Even if that means that my dreams of traveling allot again won't happen right now I now they will happen. It should be fun playing house for real...right? lol

Yesterday was busy but a big improvement. I started out the day taking some Kohls cash and getting my daughter two adorable outfits!! I was supposed to spend it on myself but I get more joy out of actually being able to pick out her clothes then I would have out of getting something small for myself ($40 doesn't go along way at Kohls in clothes that are actually stylish). After that I had to bring her back, play, put down for her nap, and then head out to the bank/Krogers. By the time I got back from that it was time to go out to dinner for my Mother in laws birthday. I thought I was going to have a stress attack until I started eating. It was bad enough having to drop Ellowyn at a sitters and run after not getting much time with her that day, but to get there late and having had no time to myself either - ugh. The food totally made up for it. It was arguably the best chicken mash patato salad thing I have had and the dessert only helped. Good thing too because I am basically out of food at home and what little I had left went to Ellowyn.

On a good note the trouble with my phone is finally settled. We had left it on trying to find someone to take over the contract, but the bill was coming due again and we had no takers. They where about to shut us off for non-payment again, so I called them and explained that I have no money and none coming in. It ended up being that my contract is suspended for three months, or until I can afford it, or until someone does actually take over the contract. I feel so free not having a phone. The bill was killing me and I found that I just don't like feeling obligated to always pick it up, or check to see if I missed a call. Once my internet and txt'ing where off the thing it became useless, and I didn't really need those anyways. I just hope we find someone to take over the plan soon. I would much rather be done with it totally then to have to face the 13months left on the contract in another three months. People think I am crazy for not having a phone (my inlaws mainly, but I think they are a little off anyways), and I think they are crazy for wanting to have a phone. Either way I am glad that it finally worked out for me to not have to pay a arm and a leg for something that isn't necessary.

On another bright note Aaron has a interview with the boss' boss at this place he went to last week. This time I get to go with him and look at housing so we have something if they offer him the job. I am excited. I love looking at housing, even if we don't end up getting the job it will have been like a little vacation getting to spend the day touring a nice little town I haven't been too before.

I so wish that there was a way to turn down the brain quickly that doesn't involve chemically induced downers. I am against replacing the oxygen in my blood with alcohol, so that one's out, don't like killing brain cells either, and herbal tea's just take to darn long to make and kick in. I want a off button. I wonder if its something that the mind can be trained too do. I will have to look into it. I am sure some weirdo meditation expert has found a way that may or may not work, but maybe some good meditation expert actually found a way.

I just spend most of my day working on Aaron's thesis. Hours helping him, or cheering him on while trying to help. When I wasn't working on it Ellowyn was running my ragged (already had gotten tired of her Grandparents at that point). She went to bed two hours ago and I just finished two hours of work on finding all the sources for the last write up we have to do. Aaron has been playing WoW for the past three hours. Geez louise! Now I have to go straight to bed because I will already be exhausted trying to get up at 8am after waking up with her throughout the night. She slept great while we where at my brothers, but went to sleeping like crap here. I think I may just have problems with anger a bit. I have gone from wanting to throw my brother in law through a window, to being on the verge of wanting to throw my husband throw a window. If Aaron stays on WoW late again (like last night) and again sleeps in late (like this morning) and again doesn't finish his thesis tomorrow because he had to keep taking breaks (like all freakin day), then I am going to throw him through a window - or at least it will be really really hard not too. Its not his fault entirely. My Mother in law babied him his entire life so he never learned how to push himself, even now he thinks he is pushing himself but its not near what I am doing. I wonder if he ever will have to learn to push himself or if it came to that point if he would give up. Parents have the best way of helping ruin the best people and yet they do it with the best intentions. Funny how life works that way.

I do feel better after writing about it all and posting it on a public site. It would be funny if in the future one of Aaron's family gets into blogging and finds this. I would tell it all to their face but they would get so offended within the first couple of sentences that they wouldn't listen anymore, start screaming, and the whole point would be lost in their anger and they would then only feel more right to be angry. So, I don't waste my breath. I wish there was a mirror in which we could look and see ourselves, what we truly do and the ways we are asses. I would love that mirror because I want to not be a ass and would love to be able to better see how to live to get what I want, and I would love having other people look into it. :) I just keep hoping that the Christan rumor that we will get a re-run in the next life so we can see what we did in this one is true. There would be a few certain people I wouldn't mind seeing right after they watched theirs.

Thank goodness Christmas is over!!! YAY!!! PARTY PARTY PARTY!!! I am totally celebrating all of the obnoixous holidays being over. Thanksgiving and Christmas are not coming again for nearly a year! Woot! The best part? I didn't throw anyone through a window yesterday! The day did not get better though as once I did venture upstairs it only ended in a bunch of food that made me feel sick (way too much meat and sugar, no potatoes, bread, and most of the veggies off the one veggie tray where gone), and losing three games of euchre in a row, after winning two though. Top that off with terrible cramping and pains from my midsection, gotta love being a girl, and it definetly wasn't a Merry Christmas.

I am just grateful to be done with those holidays. New Years is much more of a real holiday I think. Why you ask? Because you actually spend it with people you like and get to do what ever the hell you want. Now that is a reason to celebrate and a good way to do it. Personally I don't like the drunk butts but I do like to sit on the couch while everyone else is gone doing whatever they feel and watch comedies. That way if the year sucked it still goes out with a laugh. I eat pizza or whatever sounds good. Normally I start out with a good movie and end with a good laugh. Last year I just went to bed because I had a new baby, but the year before that started out with Maid in Manhattan and ended with a Who's Line Is it Anyways marathon. Let the good times roll.